Some random thoughts

Perhaps this is a little too personal to post here, but I have been thinking a lot about it and wanted to write it down.

I was talking to a new friend of mine the other night about my love life. This friend came an interesting conclusion that basically I think summed Jamie's love life up.

• I never have to work for the guys I date. Somehow, boys just come to me and want to date me. I was then compared to a rich kid's view on money. They do not work for money, so they don't appreciate it. (And yes, wow, I sound really arrogant but I am attempting to do this humbly--because it is actually a very big point of stress for me. It's not as fun as it sounds).
• They then told me that when I find someone I am really interested in, I will not know how to react. True story, those guys I think are cute and awesome, I do not know how to react around them.

I thought that was interesting and although perhaps it is a little extreme, I think that is a reason why I do not have the ability to stay interested for long. Mom is always telling me to that I need to serve the person I am dating more. When I do, I suddenly am somewhat interested in them again.

• This friend then challenged me to not flirt all week. Since my personality is friendly/ flirtacious, I knew this would be a difficult challenge. But I want to prove that I am more than that and so I told this friend I would take them up on it.

I am more than just a flirt though. Most people do not see the deeper part of my personality because I do not get close enough to people to show them. And while my family may disagree with my thoughts, this is just my new thinking.